Darkness

My doctor asked if I felt depressed.
What a foolish question I thought. Am I depressed? No, I just know the truth about this world.

"So... it seems your hearts have led you to obliteration." —Xemnas, Kingdom Hearts II

As it is, my problem cannot be solved despite whatever calculations I make.

Yet for her, it can easily be solved, the information has been given, and simple logic will lead to the correct conclusion.

It is not that I wish for the feelings to be returned, that will not happen. I only wish that the feelings will go away.

The situation that I am in is illogical.

What is to happen to my hope? Three words. "So it goes"

Inevitable

I've gone over it again and again in my head. No matter how I play it out it does not work. All logic indicates a conclusion that I cannot accept. There has to be some way around this. Some variable I am missing. Some clue I left out.

The situation itself is illogical, and easily disputed, yet it exists. What does that say? It is most likely a just a part of my nature. A part of all people's nature. Something that we all feel and desire. Something we all give in to. Disregarding reason. But that is not me!

Yet the problem exists.

No matter the chances.

No matter what my mind tells me.

No matter how I look at it.

The feeling exists.